6.19.2013

brooks hayden harris.

he's here :)
our little man arrived in this world at 
5:44pm
on
saturday, june 15, 2013.





brooks hayden harris
8 pounds 14 ounces
21 inches long

pure perfection.
i have only been an actual mother for four days now, and i can tell you that it is the best job in the whole world.  i am absolutely smitten by this angel baby.  he really has been such a joy in the short time he's been on this earth.  i could hold and stare at him all day, which is pretty much what i do.

he's already got the funniest little personality.
he is OBSESSED with hand mittens.
the only time he really cries is when we take these of to wake him up.

he loves to sleep as most newborns do.

he is one strong fellow.
he has quite the grip and loves to pull hair, clothes, skin, etc.

he has the cutest little pig squeal and chin quiver.
it always makes me laugh even though it's so sad.

he always has his hands right by his face.

and he is quite the little cuddle bug.

i seriously am so obsessed.
he's the perfect little baby and i could not love him anymore.

he is healthy and doing well
and i am recovering quite good as well.

birth story to come soon :)

until then, another picture of my precious, sweet baby boy.

he's got the best chubby cheeks!



6.13.2013

the time has come.


guys,
my baby could come anytime.
tonight, tomorrow, but for sure by saturday.
this is pure craziness!
i'm excited and very anxious.
much like this!


for ten months you have this human growing inside of you and sometimes it literally feels like you are never going to meet him/her.  then, all of the sudden it becomes real.
matt will be a father come father's day.
i will be a mom.
we will have a child.

i'm so excited to start this new chapter in our lives.
i know that everything will change.  
but it will be good changes.
i've wanted to be a mom since i was a wee little one.
and now, my dream is coming true.
next time i post you will all meet my child.
the baby boy that matt and i created and i carried for 10 months.

i already know i'm going to be an emotional hot mess the first time i lay eyes on baby brooks.
i cry reading other people's birth stories daily.
i already love him so much and he's not even here yet.
when i think about seeing him for the first time and the doctor laying him on my chest i truly become overwhelmed with happiness and love.
it is such a miracle what our bodies were made to do.
he will be the purest, most heavenly thing.  he will literally be perfect.
i feel so blessed every single day that i have this opportunity to carry a child and become a mother.
pregnancy was not the funnest, easiest thing for me, but i know that when i meet him it will all be worth it.

oh, i just love him!

on a lighter note, as i was looking for this jumping picture i came across some other doozies that matt captured of me on the beach.
now, generally i would say i'm a pretty cute person....but man i can sure do some ugly things :)






over and out.
wish me luck!
and feel free to send prayers my way :)

6.11.2013

the time i went to the hospital.

once upon a time i was deathly ill.
it started out really slowly.
i began having headaches and getting bouts of dizziness every now and again.
during the heat of the day i was freezing and often times bundled up in a blanket on the couch.
at night, i was sweat balls mcgee even though we had the fan on, window open, and swamp cooler blasting.
i literally would wake up drenched in sweat from head to toe.
after a few days of that, my body began to be extremely weak.  i literally had no energy and i hurt EVERYWHERE.
i kept trying to pass everything off as weird pregnancy things, but the truth was i just did not feel good.
i wasn't sleeping well and i was exhausted.
last monday night was the worst of the worst.
like any pregnant lady, i wake up multiple times a night to go pee.  this particular night, i was waking up every 10-15 minutes, no joke.  i was so upset.  i was so tired and so achy and i just wanted to sleep, but i literally had to pee all the time.
at about 3am i got this pain in my lower side back area, so i decided to take a tub.
(i frequent the middle of the night tub sessions)
i took a tub, hoping it would relax me and i would be able to fall asleep, but that was not the case.
i went back to bed and immediately started sweating bullets, then i had to pee, then i was in pain.
it was miserable.
all the while, my dear husband is sleeping away like a champ.
bless him.
i kept feeling my forehead and thinking i had a fever, but i wasn't for sure.
i then moved to the couch to try and read or watch something because i knew sleep was inevitable.
however, my eyes were so tired and i was so out of it and feeling like death i couldn't concentrate.
i decided to say a prayer.
i prayed to know if i needed to go into the hospital or if i just needed to tough it out.
about a half hour later it was 8am and i decided to wake the husband.
(mind you i was still peeing every ten minutes)

i went into our room and probably started crying.  i don't remember for sure, but i've been doing that a lot lately so i don't doubt it.
i asked him for my phone and i googled
"is it normal to pee every ten minutes when pregnant?"
yeah, i choose good searches!
most of the things i found were women laughing and saying yes, but then i stumbled upon a comment that said you probably have a bladder and/or kidney infection.

so then i typed "bladder and kidney infection" symptoms into google.
sure enough, headaches, sweats, chills, dizziness, frequent urination, pain in the kidney, etc. were all symptoms of the infection.
it said that if you are pregnant to get to the hospital right away.
so that is what we did.
literally threw on clothes and headed to the hospital.
note to self: eat food next time before going to the hospital.
we got there, checked in, and i gave a pee sample.
right away the nurse said, "oh yes, your pee is not normal...something is wrong."
soooo, while they tested my pee i got my very first ever IV.
i'm terrified of needles and all things pokey.
i didn't watch.
and if you look closely you can see that the nurse failed on my left arm and then did a retry on the right.
so essentially, i was stuck two times.  it hurt, but it actually wasn't that bad.
they started pumping fluids into my body which just made me need to pee more.
after the tests came back, i definitely had a bladder infection that was moving up to my kidney.
they said i did the right thing by coming in, as it can become very dangerous to me and to baby.
they added some medicines to my IV and my back/kidney pain began to fade.
the whole time they were monitoring baby and my contractions.
baby was taking it all in like a champ.
i was having relatively no contractions which they just wouldn't accept.
they were certain that someone as sick as i was surely was having contractions.

after 198 trips to the bathroom, 4 hours on the IV, and many ice chips later, they sent me on my way.
i was checked down there and i'm not even dilated in the slightest.
my doctor said something to the extent of, "that wall right there has a better chance of giving birth than you do."
had i been dilated, they would have induced me right then and there, making matthew and i the most unprepared mother and father in the world.
we have nothing packed.
our nursery was in shambles at this point.
baby laundry strewn across our living room floor.
(don't worry though, its basically done now and ready for a baby human to live there)

i am currently on 4 antibiotics a day and i pee quite a bit less than i was.
now i just feel the normal "i'm 39 weeks uncomfortable" that i imagine most pregnant women feel.
all i can say, is that i am extremely grateful for answered prayers.
although it was such a silly thing to type "is it normal to pee every 10 minutes" into google, i know that it was an answer to a prayer, because it led me into the hospital where i needed to be.
i am also very grateful for modern medicine.
i feel SO much better.
now, if i could just make this baby come early.
haha

kuddos to you if you read my novel.
since i've been horrible about actually writing in my journal, this is the next best documentation source.

also,
we did have some fun while at the hospital and sent people pictures making them think i was going into labor.
said people didn't think it was quite as funny as we did! haha :)

6.10.2013

sunday dates.

last week i was m.i.a from the blogging scene.
due to sickness and overall exhaustion, i just needed a break.
baby sure takes it out of me!!
hopefully he will come out pretty soon :)

this week i took up brooklyn's challenge of giving someone an hour of your time.
matthew and i decided to ditch the cell phones and spend our sunday afternoon out in nature.
being nearly 39 weeks pregnant, i've come to realize that my activities and my stamina are slowly dwindling haha so a canyon drive with a little exploring was perfect.
















we saw a moose friend.
utah is just beautiful :) i feel lucky to live here, surrounded by mountains, lakes, rivers, valleys, etc.

also this weekend, we hit up the lindon city pool.
i didn't bring my camera but we did get a cell phone pic.
i will tell you what, until my child is born i will be spending my time exclusively at pools.
that is a fact.



linking up with

5.31.2013

phone dump.

--sunset pictures at the lake.  matt and i have been spending a lot of time exploring nature.
--first shaved ice of the season.  i'm telling you, there will be A LOT more. we were both feeling super ambitious and ordered the biggest size, but neither of us were able to finish.. haha oh well.
--cutest baby A.  my best friends took me to lunch and gave me baby presents and the only picture i took was of this little lady.
--no bake watermelon cake.. a pinterest success found HERE.  it was a hit at sunday dinner!
--matt and i took a sunday drive up the american fork canyon and ran into a moose friend on the way.

--watching matt rock climb.  all i can say is pregnant woman were not meant to hike at 9 months. i felt SO out of shape haha.
--coronado beach picture with our favorite ladies
--memorial day bbq with the family. 
--spent lots of time with my little ladies lately, this one loves the swings.
--matt and i flew together for the first time, so of course we had to document it.
--new flowers for the kitchen.
--my oreo body.  my belly is so pasty compared to the rest of my body haha i look gooood!
--more memorial day pics with cute babies.
--padres game with our free sunglasses.
i love that boy.

and that my friends, is what i like to call phone dump.

5.30.2013

throwback thursday: engaged.

one year ago today this boy

asked me to be his wife.
i said yes and have been wearing this ring

 for exactly a year.

i think it's safe to say that saying yes was probably one of the best decisions i have ever made.
i couldn't imagine someone more suited for me than matt is.
he loves my weirdness, my quirks, my curves, my personality, all of it.
he always makes me feel good about myself and i am definitely a better person because of his influence in my life.


i love you dear.
see our engagement story

5.29.2013

coronado: day four

day four
we spent the day at the beach


with
 my cute parents

followed by a drive to san diego to see the temple.









my sister and her family, who live in california, drove up to san diego and met us for dinner.
it was a pretty chill day.

see day one&two here
day three here